Eternal Love
March 13, 2009
“Stick and stay and may it pay.”
Thank you. I love you.
Neat things:
- I played paintball for the first time in 4 years today with a great group of guys. It has rekindled my addiction!
- I love goulash.
- I love Fernando, Natasha, Helen, and Jorge. They are like four amazing weather balloons tied to my lawnchair of life! They lift me up so much! All the other tiny balloons that come WITH them are just an amazing added bonus!
- I love brownies with Dulce de Leche on them.
- Pug Therapy helps little by little.
Tarbaby and Giggles McChurchill
March 6, 2009
I am surrounded by so many amazing people, in such an amazing city. So many wonderful things have emerged in the last few weeks that I should be happy.
But I am not totally happy.
One person, one city, an entire era of my life has such a grip on me at the most awkward moments…
It’s like living in a strange vacuum. I have gotten so used to addressing and conversing with a mind that is so sharp, witty, and talented; that now everything seems so dull-”Everything is amazing, and nobody’s happy”
Why the hell do I care so much about this? I don’t know how to deal with it, save for be mopey and in a self imposed funk all day.
I mean hell, at this very moment I am losing sleep over it!
I can’t talk about it, because then I sound like a “psycho”.
I miss you Tarbaby and Chuckwagon. I really needed you today. I cried when I watched the Beach Boys video we made back in June.
Should I see a therapist?
