Eternal Love

“Stick and stay and may it pay.”

Thank you. I love you.

I’m The Same Straight-Faced Fat Kid 500 Fingernails Later

Neat things:

1. I played paintball for the first time in 4 years today with a great group of guys. It has rekindled my addiction!
2. I love goulash.
3. I love Fernando, Natasha, Helen, and Jorge. They are like four amazing weather balloons tied to my lawnchair of life! They lift me up so much! All the other tiny balloons that come WITH them are just an amazing added bonus!
4. I love brownies with Dulce de Leche on them.
5. Pug Therapy helps little by little.

Tarbaby and Giggles McChurchill

I am surrounded by so many amazing people, in such an amazing city. So many wonderful things have emerged in the last few weeks that I should be happy.

But I am not totally happy.
One person, one city, an entire era of my life has such a grip on me at the most awkward moments…

It’s like living in a strange vacuum. I have gotten so used to addressing and conversing with a mind that is so sharp, witty, and talented; that now everything seems so dull-”Everything is amazing, and nobody’s happy”

Why the hell do I care so much about this? I don’t know how to deal with it, save for be mopey and in a self imposed funk all day.

I mean hell, at this very moment I am losing sleep over it!

I can’t talk about it, because then I sound like a “psycho”.

I miss you Tarbaby and Chuckwagon. I really needed you today. I cried when I watched the Beach Boys video we made back in June.

Should I see a therapist?

Double You, Eh Ess H, Eye En Gee-Tee Oh En, Baby, Dee See

So, I moved out of our house. I no loner live in Baltimore with Vanessa. After a month of driving each other insane after the break-up, we finally have space. My friend Fernando opened his condo to me in Washington DC, and I have been looking around the ‘hood for jobs. I have an interview at the Lacoste store tomorrow that I am pretty psyched about…THE job can wait. Right now I need to get something to stop the bleeding and stabilize the wound. Also, I opened a Twitter account…I don’t know why, I am not exciting. Check it out at Twitter.com/mattheweide

Girls Got You Down? There’s Always Music.

sigh.

“… Cheery-A, cheery-E, cheery-I, cheery-O, cheery-U…”

Just because the cats sleep in the oven, doesn’t mean they’re bisciuts.

Howdy gang.

So it’s been a bit. That’s okay. Not really much has changed. I am on the hunt for full time jobs in the Baltimore and DC area. In all honesty, the magic of DC is gone. While working in DC is exciting, especially now, it’s the getting there that is starting to take its toll. I can stand the train ride, I can stand the metro ride…but the cost of such a trip eats away almost 38% of my paycheck every month. The fact that my bank, M&T seems to take FOREVER to clear a check also does not help. It takes them 3-4 business days to clear an out of state check…and my paychecks happen to come from the Land of Lincoln. Great.

Vanessa has been understanding of the situation. She’s not exactly rolling in the dough either, and has to pay for virtually everything for her classroom because the school/school board/ mayor/governor won’t put money where it needs to go (*cough* SCHOOLS-TRANSIT) and instead waste it on things like…repaving miles of sidewalk that frankly…don’t need it.

We have started to get out of the house on weekends, because we were both going a little mad. As a result we have seem the following films:

Pride and Glory (Grade: D)
(The first 10 minutes of) RocknRolla (Grade: F)
The Changeling (Grade: B+)
Quantum of Solace (Grade B-)

I Miss You Seattle

This party is just about right outside the door of my old Seattle apartment. Sigh. Baltimore was nice, what with people shooting off fireworks, there was nothing like this.

TKO

Photo credit: Raul Gutierrez.

Cookie Zen

I would like to introduce you all to our new cookie jar, Darius Rucker. We picked him up at (shudder) Urban Outfitters on the cheap. He was on what I call the “Death Table”, in other words, the table of merch that is “so last season”. I wanted him for even cheaper, and surprised Vanessa by trying to haggle with the cashier to try and lower the price. She didn’t budge. No worries. He is now in a loving home. We also picked up 3 coasters of beaded birds on the cheap too! I will get some images of them later.

So. Cookies. Cookies and I have an intimate relationship. Ever since graduation, I have come to the realization that being an adult is boring. The smell of repetition is heavy on me, and making cookies (be they for Vanessa’s classes, or for pleasure) has become a kind of weekly “zen session” for me. Whatever money problems, world problems, political grumblings…anything that has been grinding my gears…goes away. It’s just me and my tiny Oven Children.

Who is the mother of these Oven Children? Who else? Martha Stewart.

Picked this little baby up for 18 bucks at Safeway a few weeks ago. It has been making heads explode with amazing cookies in both Baltimore and Washington, D.C. I recommend you pick it up. It has tons of great tips, equipment Q&A (like the difference in pastry bags), and is plump with something like 172 cookie recipes all with wonderful accompanying photographs. Here are some photos of what may be my favorite cookie

These cookies are Chocolate Chocolate Chunk with White Chocolate Chips. I am calling them “Brownie Blowouts” or something because they are pretty much flat brownies with tasty chunks o’ choc in them. By the way, no, these are not all for me. Most of them went to Vanessa’s class for birthday celebrations, and a dozen and a half or so went into the stomachs of my coworkers at Edelman. They like cookies too.

Christmas List:

1 Wire cooling rack
1 Silicone Oven mitt to supplement this guy: Otherwise known as Angry Evil Reindeer Oven Mitt. He’s a good boy, he just…frightens the cookies.

InshallMTA – Long As I Can See The Light

“California, you would not believe the week I’m having.”
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